Let That Sh*t Go Girl...
HEEEYYY! Long time no hear from! I haven't been doing much, just haven't had much to blog about so I've been kind of low-key. I really do like blogging but sometimes when certain fields are oversaturated, it can cause for you to burnout REALLY quick. Anywho, I guess you can say I'm somewhat back to blogging, at least once or twice a week but we'll see!
Six months of the year have passed and I'm still trying to figure out where has the time gone! I can honestly say 2017 so far been a year of transition, change and self-reflection for me. This year is also teaching me it's okay to LET GO! I have a confession, it can sometimes be very challenging for me to let go. Because I'm such a loyal person, it's so hard for me to walk away from people and situations which mean me no good! One good/bad quality about me is that when I ride for you, I ride until the wheels fall off and then I'll help you push that thang to the nearest tire shop! I ride through the GOOD, the BAD, the UGLY and the DISGUSTING. I ride through it all and although loyalty is celebrated and sometimes appreciated, it can be damaging to self-development.
When you are giving so much to someone or a situation, it can leave minimum to no time for you to recharge and pour into yourself. You want to be that loyal friend, that dedicated partner, that go-to companion but it's pulling you and draining you and when you lay down at the end of the day, you are empty, hurt and in need of a re-charge.
I found myself being part of draining relationships. I found myself participating in relationships where I would go over and beyond for them but they wouldn't even go down the street for me. I found myself expecting so much from the other side and being highly disappointed because that person did not meet my expectations. I had to be a grown 28 year old woman, bite the bullet and let those situations go! That's never easy because when your heart is involved, it's not easy to walk away from someone you have called "FRIEND" for so long. It's not easy to be uncomfortable for a while or to be back in a stage of "loneliness" because the people and/or situations which once accompanied you are no longer present in your life.
If I've learned nothing else so far this year, I've learned it's perfectly okay to LET GO and trust what is coming is so much better than what has left. I have let go of friendships, relationships and even old clothes and shoes and I feel such a renewing in my spirit. Meditation is becoming a staple in my life and it has truly helped me feel anew and to release what no longer served a purpose in my life. I prayed for 28 and beyond to be a new era for me and slowly but surely, God is answering my prayer. Who knows, life is a full circle and maybe the art of letting people and situations go is temporary but either way it goes, I'm releasing my grip to hold on to something or someone so tight which needs to be released and given to God!