A Dream Deferred...
Tuesday, we meet again!:) I have been working pretty efficiently developing the "new and improved" rateddTALK and I have to say, it's been a lot of work! Since changing the show's concepts and becoming the ONLY host, I have taken on the job of host/editor/creative director/whatever else I need to be. It would be nice to have someone else edit but I have yet to find someone that can make the vision I have in my head come to life. I made this HUGE announcement on Instagram, FB, and even Snapchat about the show debuting in May but honestly, things have went the COMPLETE opposite. Editing is way more tedious than I imagined and between working a FULL-TIME job, being a FULL-TIME mommy and trying to manage somewhat of a social life, It has been hard!
I put a lot of pressure on myself and I have literally been trying to make this show PERFECT while YouTubing other show's quality, stage set up, background and camera equipment. Not fully trusting that even though I don't have this beautiful team to back me up or more amazing women to sit alongside me, I could still produce a show women can love and appreciate! A lot of people don't know this but I have bad anxiety and the ability to become exceedingly overwhelmed comes somewhat easy at times. Instead of me stepping back, gathering my thoughts, I allowed for the unrealistic expectations I consistently put on myself to cause me to literally have an emotional breakdown.
See rateddTALK is my dream and I just really want people to feel like I feel about it! I want it to be a monthly "LEMONADE" experience for them! See I want it to make you laugh, make you cry, make you throw your shoe at the computer screen and make you feel proud to be a WOMAN! So what do you do when the dream is deferred? What do you do when the dream looks nothing like what you imagined it to be? What do you do when the dream seems damn near impossible? You cry, dry your eyes, get up and run! Run towards your dreams, catch them and carry those things on your back and they give you the wings to fly! YES, rateddTALK is coming and YES, it's going to go down in history as a platform that changed women EVERYWHERE!:) I pray you continue to ride alongside me on this journey and I hope rateddTALK is everything WE imagined and more!:)