Hi, I'm Perfect Patty...
SIKE...we ALL know that's a lie!! I'm 27 if you all didn't know and have been for a couple of months now. One thing I'm learning day by day is to except Ramaiseya for who she is. See I have had this strong urge and felt this huge responsibility to be EVERYTHING everyone else wanted me to be instead of who I really and truly am. Scared to say certain things because I was so afraid people would think this way of me or scared to act a certain way because I didn't want people to categorize or label me. I have lowkey been living in a box, in a shell, only coming out when no one was around and I couldn't hear the judgemental bashing. I had allowed myself to become this BORING, MUNDANE, people pleaser and I don't know if it was the HORRIBLE relationship I previously was in or just the fact I had given up on some many things about life. By any rate, it turned my life into a people pleasing mantra.
For some reason though, 27 awakened me in a way I wasn't quite prepared for and am still discovering! It awakened this Ramaiseya which is starting to peek through and shine. I'm truly beginning to "find myself" and be okay with everything that makes me, ME! Like the fact that I love twerking in the mirror when I'm by myself because it takes me back to the days when me and my friends would spend the night over each other's homes, turn the music up as loud as our parents would allow, close the door and turn our rooms into a full on twerk party! LOL! Or the fact I love ratchet music and will turn into the most hood female you've ever seen when it comes on! I enjoy embracing my sexy and even though I'm going to always remain classy, I love flaunting my curves even though they aren't perfect! I thoroughly enjoy ratchet TV and although I know 101% of it is fake and rehearsed, I still love hollering back at the TV giving my two cents on each scene! I'm SUPER silly and laughs in the most serious of moments!! I am a girly-girl and embrace EVERY single aspect of being a G-I-R-L!! I'm a hopeless romantic and LOVE everything from surprise flowers to impromtu dates in the parks!!
I am Ramaiseya Dashare Parham and although I'm a constant work in progress, I'm truly beginning to embrace it. I am no longer longing to be "Ms. Perfect Patty" who always says the right things and behaves the right way; I'm ME! Sometimes I may laugh a little louder in public than I should, sometimes my skirt may be a tad bit too tight acording to some standards and sometimes Migos may make me act a little too East Atlanta Zone 6 but this is who I am. You can either take it or leave it. I've decided to switch up my hair, my style and truly re-invent myself, getting to what satifies RAMAISEYA! I'll definitely share pics along the way, but all I have to say is STAY TUNED!! :)