The Perfect Man...
I haven't did a sit down confessional in quite some time now but I was thinking the other night and decided to write this one up!
As you all know, I'm single and have been for quite some time now. I won't go into details about how long because it would probably scare most of you! I recently was talking to a guy friend as well as participating in #rateddchat on the hit Youtube talk show, #rateddtalk and he said something that made me look at myself and really ask myself about my perfect mate.
If you're anything like me, you have everything about your life figured out. From your dream wedding to your dream job to even your dream mate, it's all figured out and you're just waiting for it to manifest in front of your eyes. I sometimes find myself fantasizing about my "perfect" mate. From his 6'4 height to his muscular average build to even his beard. I always fantasize in my mind what is my "perfect" man.
I was dating a guy not too long ago and the qualities I had written down and fantasized about, he possessed. When I actually got to see those qualities come into fruition, I realized he really wasn't what I wanted. I began to question everything I thought was "perfect." On the latest episode of #rateddtalk, we all spoke about our top 3 qualities we NEED in our mate and even though my 3 qualities flowed like water, it was still a doubt in my mind as to if this was really what I wanted.
I sometimes find myself shying away from good guys placed in my life because I'm looking for him to be "perfect." Looking for him to be 6'4! Looking for him to have perfect credit! Looking for him to have a fat bank account! Looking for him to love my kid but have no kids himself! I'm looking for him to be a fairtytale of what I want and not exactly what I need. Looking for him to be my Prince Charming, not knowing that my idea of Prince Charming may not be my "perfect" man. Maybe what I deemed as perfection is merely just outer distractions. Maybe what I deemed as perfection concludes with a broken heart and a unwillingness to trust. Maybe what I deemed as perfect is nowhere near what my "PERFECT" man should be. Because now I'm learning that all the outer is good, from height to status but it's not what the "perfect" love consists of. So until then, I will tuck my detailed list in my journal and trust that God is preparing the "perfect" man just for me!!